Hey, Miss J!

Time: 12:06AM

Okay, I’m totally ready for my lesson tonight… that I need to have ready for the morning.

And then, I got an idea for a short/one-shot. I ended up grabbing one of the GAZILLION spiral notebooks I bought that were only $0.35 each – Thank you Staples for your back-to-school sale – grabbed a glue stick, a sharpie and a blank index card. As I do, I scribbled my name on there along with a name for the notebook in big ole letters. In my sloppy handwriting. Heh.

I’ve scribbled down the concept for the short, which I’m naming “The Sweetest Treat”. Now I can resume my lesson.

Or begin it rather.

Drat. Now I’m down to just like 2 hours. 😦

~J. Lyst

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Time: 10:09PM

So, I didn’t go to bed until a bit after 4AM. Interestingly, it wasn’t my alarm that woke me up.

Some random man was looking for someone and rang my doorbell. I didn’t recognize the name at all, and I wonder how he ended up with my address. I sincerely hope he finds her.

Or found her rather.

It was a rather odd start to my day. The result of that is me sleeping less than four hours. However, I was on the go all day. I didn’t really feel tired.

At all.

It’s odd. I get six hours sleep and feel like I’m about to die, but three hours – and I’m zipping all over the place like I was injected with jet fuel.

Maybe it was because I had coffee last night? But the effects of the caffeine shouldn’t have been that long.

Car finally got cleaned for the first time since like late 2018, early 2019. The guy with the power washer was touching the hood of the car and gawking at the dirt that got on his hands. His coworker touched it too – probably because he didn’t believe him and looked shocked too.

I guess they thought that my car was actually brown or black.

Yep… not that color at all. Even after washing it, the car still had dirt on it in places. I have a few areas where the paint peeled off, and I know where to take it to get it repainted… but I literally don’t have the money right now to do that.

It makes me sad. The first time I saw paint peeling, I wanted to cry.

That was the desire, but what I actually did was scream.

Outside.

Very loudly.

In broad daylight.

Uncaring as to who saw me.

I’m certain my new neighbors think I’m insane now.

Visited a friend too and shared some food. I have way too much for myself alone so I’m glad I was able to help someone else.

I had dinner that wasn’t cereal this time and… It was great! I had salmon cakes and mixed greens.

While I’m tracking calories to help me lose weight as I struggle to exercise correctly without having parts of my body break down faster, I’m still burning like crazy without realizing it because of all the steps here.

I worry about that often… that I have to travel up and down stairs. I hobble or crawl depending on how the day goes. Sometimes I can muster the energy to sprint up the stairs. I see myself in a wheelchair in the future, and if that happens, I won’t be able to stay here at all. I won’t be able to keep my ancient car either.

I’m more upset about losing my car than my home.

I wonder when my priorities changed so drastically…

My new HR watch has been very beneficial in helping me not only track my calorie expenditure – but also how well I sleep at night in terms of heart rate. I’m less afraid of what’s going on with my health because I wear it.

Instead of being terrified of having a resting HR of 95, it’s really just 78. It would be 95 if I just sat down to check.

That has more than likely resulted in my blood pressure being much lower at the doctor’s office. I still need to return to manually tracking it though.

Plan for tomorrow – attend a gathering I was invited to and work on my first ‘Short’, if I don’t get much done tonight.

I’m two – technically three lessons behind now because of my back which still hurts some.

Ugh…

~J. Lyst