Hey, Miss J!

As the song says: “Crazy amazing day”.

I can’t complain too much about today, except for the fact that I still have 0 clue why my back hurts so badly. I was curious and optimistic about what the bloodwork I have would say. What I was told is as follows:

• One of my levels is off, which indicates hypothyroidism, but the other is high end of normal, so I might have hypothyroidism or I might not.
• Another blood test I had was meant to detect a particular protein which is a hallmark – supposedly – for another condition. My protein level was higher than normal… “But that doesn’t necessarily mean you have it. There is no real definitive test for this condition.”
• I have above average potassium, but that might be nothing.

I feel like I’m sandwiched between a rock and a hard place. The rock is ‘potential’ problems and the hard place…

Well that’s missed diagnosis.

No one likes it when they have their problems minimized or glossed over. I don’t know if what I received counted as that.

I have no idea why I was given a blood test, then given two contradictory answers for my bloodwork.

I do not know why I can’t reach my cardiologist.

I mentioned the muscle pain below the right shoulder blade – how it made breathing somewhat painful and difficult.

The doctor said: “I’m going to do an x-Ray on you.”

Guess what I got after waiting ten minutes? A referral to a different hospital to have my x-ray done. I managed to get an additional referral before I left.

So I could have a condition that makes it difficult for me to lose weight and one that explains my chronic pain.

I’m trying to remain optimistic. Bio-Freeze helped a lot.

I’m also still struggling with the stigma of being the perpetually unemployed. It sucks, especially when I get water bills that are twice what they’ve been for the last 6 years. I find it irritating and fishy. Who or why am I being told I’m using 100 gallons of water a day? That doesn’t make one smidgen of sense.

A friend suggested that I call the water company in the morning, and I’ll do that. Hopefully… if it’s a mistake on their end, they’ll credit my account for the excess.

There’re so many other words I could use to voice how upset I am, but at the end of the day…

What is the point?

Now… I just want some answers.

Work on Chapter 18 will resume tomorrow. I have about two assignments to work on.

I’m also trying out a new mobile app. Not the first time I’ve seen it, but the first time that all I do is click ‘Watch video’ every two minutes. I hope I can make $5 tomorrow.

Anything that can help with the burden of cat litter and my own personal expenses is okay in my book.

Last time, I earned $1.88, but I was nervous about how legit the app was, so I uninstalled it.

Giving it a second try. Will see how it all goes.

And as this blog post winds down to a close, “Un-Break My Heart” by Toni Braxton begins to play through my headphones.

Thanks Amazon!

~J. Lyst

Since I’ll be up for some hours working on assignments, might as well try to earn a few $, right?