Hey, Miss J!

Why have I only now just realized I had two blogs titled “Happy Pills”?

Yikes.

I hope this one isn’t a repeat offender too.

I don’t even know what to say.

My morning started off rough. When your day begins with a nightmare that has you waking up in tears, you can tell the course of the day will be up in the air.

I’m more inclined to say the day will be terrible, but let’s try to be more optimistic, hm?

I woke up around 6:45AM and felt like death warmed over. I literally oozed out of bed. My alarm hadn’t even gone off yet.

I was so tired that I couldn’t even put my mask back on and passed out in bed again.

What was the subject of these nightmares? We’ll just say I saw something yesterday that bothered me more than I thought it would. That I was startled is telling. It takes a bit to shock me these days.

So, what’s up recently?

I think this is day two or 1.5 of no anxiety medication. Maybe that has something to do with the intensity of my nightmares? I have to see my primary today, and I think I’ll take a pill after I return and get back into my assignments.

I nearly had a box full of cat recently, as my youngest one decided to somehow squeeze his fat body into a box that didn’t look like he’d fit into.

He fit though, not that I was going to give him a treat for it. He’s had enough. He keeps trying to bite holes into the one of the newest bags of cat food and one of his claws finally pierced it. So, I suppose I’ll load both feeders with it.

His previous owner noted that he only ‘appeared’ fat. He more or less resembles what happens if you’re trying to squeeze 5 pounds of meat into a 2-pound casing.

It ain’t all fur.

In Navigating the Curve, found here: https://archiveofourown.org/works/25820569/chapters/62723077, the drama is ramping up in chapter 17. I’m hitting the spot I always fear in my writing… the doggone bland bits of dialogue and pieces that I really have no need for. It’s like a wall.

They are there to fill the story. What gives stories character is (in some cases) the filler around major events. The people and their personalities can draw too, but to be fair… An entire novel can be done in primarily monologue.

I don’t think I want to put myself through that at all.

I have to admit though… Chapter 17 even seems dull to me, which doesn’t bode well for the rest of the chapter.

We’ll see how today goes. Even though I am still exhausted, I have several tasks I hope to actually complete today.

Here’s hoping I get 1/4^th of it done?

Cheese!

~ J. Lyst