Hey, Miss J!

I have absolutely no way idea how to begin this blog post. It’s strange – especially when it’s an assignment. I’m just not sure what to say.

Maybe I should begin at an explanation…

Apparently, I am most animated when discussing my writing when speaking about hobbies.

No surprise there. In my Author Notes, I’ve explained that I’m my biggest fan in terms of fanfiction reading.

Really, it’s in terms of any reading of my writing.

So many different thoughts can be conveyed through words. I’m not only a fan of reading, but I enjoy the process of creating what I can sometimes refer to as ‘a work of art’ with just… words. No pictures.

Years ago, I allowed the ridicule, taunts and threats of others to stop me from advancing in drawing, and by the time I made it to college – well… There’s a reason I don’t feature drawn images on this blog. I never think it will be worth it. I’ve completely lost what knowledge I had on depth and perception.

That is why I try to paint a picture with my words.

My ongoing joke is that I can’t even draw a square correctly. It’s a shame really and was a waste of money spent on college art classes. The truth is, I can’t draw a line or angle correctly either.

I can’t shade because I don’t know where the light is coming from.

Things appear twisted and backwards to my eyes… Which is why I could never finish my degree – which hurts because I was struggling to pay for one class per semester. That means I would have been probably this same age… nearly 40… finally completing a two-year degree.

What’s negative has seemed positive… what’s left is right.

Advanced math has now become the bane of my existence.

Still, I never let these problems stop me from writing.

So, my assignment. As it was the topic of this blog post.

My therapist wants me to just… “Write My Feelings”, and keep a record.

I’ve never had a writing assignment where the crux of it was expressing my own thoughts in any form of printable media. Sure, there were creative writing assignments or research projects. All of those I dove headfirst into.

The topic was never just me. It feels strange. Nice, but very odd.

As I appreciate the fact that I seem to have people who read this blog (thank you so much!) I try to make it a habit to not post more than once a day.

… Even though lately I was having a problem posting once per month. Sorry about that.

So, while I want to explain in a separate blog post how I ended up having such an ear for music… Which I’ve never explained anywhere before, that will have to wait.

And that’s only if I remember!

I’ve been working on revisions for Navigating the Curve, and now Chapters 1-4 are revised and up for easy reading. I still have Chapters 5-9 to revise.

Should I post chapters of NtC here? I don’t know. After all, it is fanfiction – so there’s no profit to be had for me. I worry though that the chapter will overwhelm the blog itself.

None of my chapters are shorter than 22 pages. I think I’ve mentioned that before. So in like 1.5 days, I punched my way through over 80 pages. There are still minute errors here and there, but those can be easily repaired whenever I get around to revising again.

While there is no financial benefit, I do have some. Mainly, I stretch my writing muscles and get a better idea for what people enjoy. This is good. When I finally revise/repair my novel, I’ll do better.

2013 is not 2020, after all.

And hey, if you want to read NtC on your own, the latest chapter is here: https://www.fanfiction.net/s/13667760/13/Navigating-The-Curve or here: https://archiveofourown.org/works/25820569/chapters/98966154

I continue to enjoy the quiet, away from family stress too. I avoid them… The fact they live in another state helps. Do I miss them?

Yes… But I enjoy the peace a lot more. For my continued psychological health, I need to keep a nice fat wall between us.

Sort of like how Peter Parker put up a blanket wall between himself and his fiancée. And no, the fiancée is not who you think. Who are they? You’ll have to tune in to ‘Navigating the Curve’ find out.

I think I can stop here, because I’ve punched out – HaHa – what I wanted to say about my feelings.

At least for now.

Till Then!

XXO

~ J. Lyst aka Miss J.