Hey, Miss J!

Time: 12:07AM

Date: May 18, 2022

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I wanted to start off by apologizing for my last blog post. The rest of my day was far better. A friend of mine came over to see me because other friends hadn’t been able to reach me at all, and she had a key. When I say she barreled in the door, it’s not an exaggeration. I heard her yell at one of my cats to get out of the way downstairs.

It’s very good she came. I was sitting at my desk and staring into space. Thankfully only took one of my medications for anxiety, but was so wound up that I couldn’t sleep. Then I dropped the bottle and spilled half of the medication, which had to be vacuumed up later on.

Fortunately, it’s used as needed.

We (My friend and I) worked together to clean up my room again, so that I can walk around better in here.

I’ve been sleeping better too.

Decluttering your living space can declutter your mind too, something that I’m immensely grateful for.

I was also scolded by another friend for not explaining I needed help. I’m working on that. It’s hard to admit needing help, especially when it’s for psychiatric issues. On one side of the family, you’re treated as if you are weak or scum if you have a problem with your mental health.

The main relative who does that just keeps trying to pry to find out what’s wrong with me. What’s funny is that she knows this is my pen name… but she cares so little about me in reality that she doesn’t look up anything about me online.

I mean she even has access to my TikTok for crying out loud.

It’s fine. What she doesn’t know won’t kill me.

So… her current assumptions have been that either I have AIDS or Hepatitis C.

Why she immediately assumed I had an STD when I haven’t been with anyone for well over a decade… I’ll never understand. Ah well.

I wonder what STD or disease she’ll think I have next week.

On a more positive note, NtC is still being updated. Chapter 11 is up, but since I’m working on Chapter 12 at current and the overarching outline.

Can I post links here? I think I can.

I’m on Fanfiction.net here: https://www.fanfiction.net/s/13667760/1/Navigating-The-Curve and ArchiveOfOurOwn here: https://archiveofourown.org/works/25820569/chapters/62723077

I spose that’s it for now.

~ Miss J

Or should I sign it like I do my chapters??

XXO

~J. Lyst