Hey, Miss J!

Hey there! Thank you so much for being patient with me. I know I haven’t been posting as of late. It’s not because I didn’t want to. More so, it’s because I couldn’t. In my last post to WordPress, I explained that I was beginning to feel disoriented.

My last podcast was verbal only because I wasn’t able to write much that made any sense.

I felt disjointed at times, my typing was suffering, and I was just miserable overall.

Only sleeping three hours a night for over three days isn’t safe or healthy for anyone. However, it’s what I was doing. I struggled to write letters… which is the most important thing I do during the week – all in vain it seemed.

I was scared.

I truly have never been in a situation where my faculties were so terribly compromised. I had to second-guess every move – question every decision… three or four times.

I went to see my friend…

She had to direct me around her kitchen to find plates and cups. I was so so angry with myself. I KNOW where all of those things are but it was as if the memories eluded me. My muscle memory was mostly intact for very basic things.

Such as controlling a one-ton machine.

Was it scary to be on the road like that? Absolutely. I remained unusually alert, which isn’t normal for me, while driving. That was a plus. I also obtained many bags of oranges and apples. Along with onions and potatoes.

So much delicious fruit.

I’m about to grab one of each shortly. Not the onions and potatoes…

I managed to speak to my psychiatrist and noted the issues with sleeping. It’s dicey because I can’t safely cut my pills in half. That would lead to me having uneven dosing on a regular basis. For now, I’ve found that the soothing sounds of “soft rumbling thunder” have helped. I love stormy weather. So much that I went and created a 10-hour long video on it. I recorded all of the audio on my porch during two heavy storms.

Since my last blog and my last podcast, I’ve also gone through another round of physical therapy. The goal is to get me to the point that I can function in my home like a normal human being. Or as normal as I can be with an unstable spine and knees that are deteriorating on me.

Sorry that this isn’t a writing-related post. No author things to be found here. Only health related stuff.

I’ve been more than a little bit busy.

Thank you for your time!

Be well!

~ Miss J

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