Hey, Miss J!

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Time: 12:58AM

Mood: Energetic

Music: Celine Dion – Water From The Moon

For the last day and a half, I’ve felt an underlying sensation of elation. I’m not sure why. I’m conflicted to one extent. Is it because of the medication or because of my new normal in my social circles?

Could the bursts of joy be due to just a change of view on my situation?

Whatever it is, I love it.

And fear it.

I don’t want the good feeling to ever end, but in the back of my mind… I feel like it will.

Technically… and purely from a medical standpoint… I haven’t had my new meds for that long.

And sure, I’ve had periods where I was irritable…angry even. But those all dissolved like soap bubbles.

It’s like… I can remember and understand the frustration and anger, yet it doesn’t sit in my gut like a stone anymore. Before, I would spend minutes, hours and days with perpetual bouts of seething anger and depression with very few points of light anywhere.

I like that I seem to be hitting a wall with the anger now. That alone could be purely situational though.

Ah well. I’ll see where it goes from here.

Oh! I also joined TikTok. People really like my dad voice-acting for a potpie. Yes. A potpie on a plate.

Later! I’m going to go clean. Yes, it’s after 1AM now. Don’t judge me!

~Miss J