Umm… Only two of my current friends know this.
No clue if any of them are reading this.
But… years ago, I dated a woman.
The relationship progressed to us being engaged.
The circumstances around the relationship breaking down are still painfully raw… along with the rage that lingered after that.
One of my friends that knows about that told me that I wasn’t bisexual anymore, but heterosexual. I explained to her that I actually still am bisexual, but I never plan on ever approaching a woman.
Ever.
Never, ever, EVER again.
Sexual orientation isn’t exactly something that can be flipped off or on like a light switch.
However… I suppose I would call it pride or a desire for privacy… it’s why I put “heterosexual” on my medical paperwork. It’s so much easier that way. I avoid speaking about my ex to any of my friends, especially the older ones. Except the ones that actually know.
There’s an ongoing fear of my ex showing up in my life again and pulling up what was one of the worst periods of my early adulthood.
My dad asked have I seen or heard from my ex, and I explained plainly that I have not. I do not want to, and I will likely turn the other way and lengthen a walk I might need to do just to avoid the situation.
I’m on a cane and experience untreated pain for my joints and back. But you think I wouldn’t add an additional two blocks to get away from that situation? I absolutely would.
~J. Lyst
Funnily enough, I think I was asked recently if I had been sexually active in the past or if I was a virgin.
No clue what I was supposed to say to that one.
Hey, Miss J! 
Your Thoughts?