The best gift I’ve ever received in life… is my life.
I’ve had to go through psychological trauma and various health problems. I’ve dealt with feelings of depression that were so deep–I never thought I would escape. I’ve had to fight through suicidal thoughts.
I’ve been battling an eating disorder for close to three decades.
I kid you not.
Thirty years.
I don’t like my body that much at all. I find myself irritable and frustrated when I look at myself.
But… I have the gift of being alive. Despite all the heartbreak and heartaches, I still have my life. I still have the chance, each day, to find joy in something. I found a lot of joy today in getting a new exercise ball and the drumsticks I need for my cardiovascular exercises.
I found joy today in making and eating mashed potatoes. With Mexican style cheese, goat cheese and a tiny bit of butter.
I also just remembered that I have a protein shake to finish that is sitting inside the fridge. It’ supposed to be strawberries and cream.
… At current, it tastes like powder and cream. I can’t be bothered to pull out my blender for a protein shake.
Will I still use it anyways?
Of course.
I even enjoyed today, using wood filler to try and repair cat-scratch damage. That 21 year old cat started this madness.
Old.
So… by looking for and finding joy in small things, I can find happiness it the biggest gift I could have ever received, despite the challenges I face.
Life.
~J. Lyst
Hey, Miss J! 
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