Hey, Miss J!

Finally starting to feel normal again. I took the new medication my doctor gave me… and proceeded to lose what little mind I have.

Vision was worse than usual. My balance problems were far worse. My voice became extra raspy.

This medication dried me out so much that I wanted to cry. My lips were chapped… to the extent they had a bit of while coloring to them. Swallowing was difficult most of the day.

And this is embarrassing to admit, but I nearly threw up eating peanut butter. Stuff got stuck in my throat. Nothing worse than having something just hanging out in your esophagus. Despite drinking water beforehand, nothing would go down. Fortunately, I had a bottle of water right in my reach and was able to flush the peanut butter down.

My mouth was so dry that I nearly choked on my own mucus too.

How much have I taken of that medication to have that sort of reaction? Barely any. I had my prescribed dose last night, proceeded to get confused and delirious. Passed out in bed and got up about three times to hit the bathroom. I had to lean against the wall to make it there too.

Along with digestive problems and other stuff involving my throat and lungs… I also got super confused today. I would get lost in the middle of a conversation. I opted to mostly stay quiet.

I ended up making it home, but fatigue still clings like a horrible blanket that’s soaked all the way through from torrential rains.

My mind is slowly coming out of it, because I remembered words like “torrential” without having to struggle.

I knew I was struggling still because the dialogue that I started on for March’s NtC update… well. It wasn’t good at all. Not at all.

I’ve thoroughly embarrassed myself today. The tremors in my hands also got a lot worse.

I’m gonna go do my reading and try to hammer out more of chapter 24.

Then, bed!

~J. Lyst

I refuse to take anymore of that medication and will gladly return it to my psychiatrist in person if she wants.