Hey, Miss J!

Just simple observations really.

It’s so strange to hear the sounds of birds chirping away, especially when it’s only three in the morning. I’m sitting up hours later now, half listening to a tv show… and half trying to stay awake to coherently type. I’m quite tired, you see. For someone who is not yet in their 40s, I get up sometimes and feel like I’m in my 60s.

Between fatigue and horrible muscle spasms, I try to continue to thrive.

I’m so exhausted though.

The medicine I’m on has been increased. The doctor wants to see how well I can take it… and to be fair, I’m curious to see how it goes.

I’m unable to drive.

I’m half unable to walk straight.

I sleep on average nine to ten hours, yet still feel as if I need ‘just one more minute’.

In some ways, I can call the changes a success. While one medication causes an increase in anxiety, the medication for the anxiety makes me too sleepy to even be able to feel anxious.  

Course, I’m too tired to be able to do anything really. So, while writing is quite a release for me and exciting at the same time – I don’t have much energy for even that now.

Even now, I’m writing this and struggling to prevent my eyes from crossing. My right knee feels as if someone swung at it with a hammer, and I was barely able to fully move my leg out of the way.

So, pardon for any extra typos I’m making.

Sitting up for right now is only so I can properly digest my medication.

The lucidity I had yesterday has long gone. It was nice while it lasted, but was temporary.

And of course, I finally got my newest chapter of Navigating the Curve up and running.

I sincerely hope I don’t have to drive anywhere today… because that is certainly on the list of things that aren’t going to happen.

I’m going back to bed.

Till then.

Miss J.

😊