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So, it’s 11:53PM tonight, but by the time that it’s up, it’ll be the 18^th. I’ve been taking time to rest… to think. I want so badly to return to drawing. It sounds silly, I know, because why go through all of that? Why go through the struggle and the stacks of sketchbooks?

Well, it’s simple. Art is fun. I enjoy it.

I’ve never thought of myself as overly creative, at least not from that standpoint. Maybe I just never gave myself a chance? Would it be wrong for me resume drawing to fill part of my time? Should I do something else?

I know I enjoy painting, but I’m not good at classical works.

And if I go back to drawing, should I do black and white or try to add a pop of color?

Should I resume knitting? Try to crotchet again? Or should I try to learn to sew again?

As I’ve said before, my interests are vast and far reaching. Years ago, I did artwork with pastels, made a picture of a swan for my grandparent’s anniversary. But then…

I just lost touch.

I’m a musician too. Daily, I love to sing – everyday! I sing to my friends all the time. Due to restrictions, we can only see each other through a screen. Still… I really love to sing.  

I also play piano. As of late though… my keyboard has been sort of neglected. It’s not entirely my fault. One of my cats has decided to use it as a gigantic bed.

My snare drum probably feels neglected. I miss doing drum cadences. It’s been so long that I’ve forgotten half of the ones I knew in school.

And… there’s my Tawny. I’ve had my guitar since before the car. And the car is nearly twenty years old. The most I’ve learned on it are three chords – potentially one alone now as I haven’t played it at all.

What should I do? How do I settle on one thing to do every day? Is it even possible to schedule that stuff?

By the way, I still have that chapter to edit for Navigating the Curve. And another chapter to write for Open Arms.

Then, there’s my YouTube Channels. I’m returning to work on Badb8 Gaming and TheReadingLyst. Instead of the frantic race though – I’m just going to enjoy myself. Having fun recording and not just filming for a paycheck makes it way more fun to do.

Remember that no income thing?

Yeah, still there.

But I can’t focus on that. I can’t do much about that situation, and worrying helps no one.

Oh, I had therapy today. (Well yesterday.) It went well.

One of my friends told me she could hear a smile in my voice.

I’m happy to hear that.

What am I doing right now? Watching some Voyager and working on a thumbnail. A very strange combination, but I’m not mad.

Have a good night!

~ Miss J